My name is Nick Bosse, I live in Taastrup, approx. 20 km outside Copenhagen, with 4 Chihuahuas and 1 rescue cat.
I was born on August 17, 1974, in Nanortalik, Greenland My parents had a supermarket up there, I was approx. 1½ years old when we moved back to Denmark.		My parents moved to Herlev, they had a small grocery store to start with, then my father became the owner of a DSB kiosk, later my parents got a kiosk in Taastrup Stationscenter in Taastrup.
Later we moved to a house in Gundsømagle, just outside Roskilde, here I went to Margretheskolen (named after Queen Margrethe), No it was not a very good place and I had a hard time going to school, I did not fit in anywhere, I was embarrassed about my body and did not want to do gymnastics, did not want to change clothes in front of the others or bathe with them, I came into puberty very early, I had hair in the strangest places and my classmates had nothing !, I would rather play with the girls, they accepted me, I only had 1 friend, so now you can probably figure out how my schooling was !, I was bullied a lot, I dropped out of school often and never did my homework. I was first sent to a treatment home for maladapted adolescents, there were about 6 months was sent back to school but it did not work so I was sent to a school home where I lived 24/7.
I’ve never been an “ordinary” boy, People called me gay before I even knew what it was, but then my interest in boys started to get into my head, I think they were beautiful and lovely, But instead of find the problem for my “maladaptation” and the challenges I had here and now and try to help me get over them, then restrictions were thrown in my head at the school home! I was not allowed to be alone with the boys in their rooms, I was supervised all the time by educators and teachers, but it just did not help, I became more and more provocative!
So how did my interest in Makeup Start
Because I hated going to school, I was pretty much alone at home, my parents had the kiosk and was late at home so I used to play with my mother’s Makeup and dresses, I remember she had a really nice coat, which I loved to age on and ran around the house with, For me it was fun to dress up and see what Makeup could do. I was also a weird kid, I had / have a huge interest in Horror / Gore / Splatter movies, I love Freddy Krueger, Jason, Michael Myers, Monsters, the more blood and guts, the better, my dad was not overly happy for my interest. I remember one night we saw The Fog (the original The Fog, remember I’m old) and at the beginning of the movie, both my mom and I jumped in fright, my dad became angry and turned off the television, we should not see such garbage!
My Sexuality
My path to accepting myself, has been very long and has been filled with regrets and pain, just as much as so many others, I just have a need to be honest about it! So let me state at the beginning, I was very young when I found out I was for men, around 7 or 8, I used to look at the pictures in the gay porn magazines my parents sold, It was free and there was no internet back then and that was where my fantasies started to blossom. As I wrote I came very quickly into puberty, I got very hairy, like the first in my class and I did not know how to deal with it and this was where I started to put on and shut myself inside myself and became lonely, so I grew up gay, fat and hairy, so where did I belong? At Makeup School I could finally be myself, my friends accepted me for who I was / are and for my talent, I also started writing personals for a gay magazine, yes they did then, I wanted to find my inner self, I had after all always shown that I was attracted to men, but were they attracted to me but could it work, but I quickly found out that this is how the gay environment does not work! for many years I was alone with my thoughts and I had gay magazines and VHS tapes to keep me company, I lived alone in an apartment in Nørrebro, while I worked in my parents’ kiosk and everything was so ok, I started to walk a little out, I gradually started dating (the wrong people) and I started to feel unattractive, I had sex very late in my life, I was shown in my early 20s and it was not a hit! at one point I was so confused by my thoughts and feelings, I was “feminine”, I still loved Makeup and dressing up, so I went to my doctor and got a referral to the Sexology Clinic, I got in touch with a woman who had been through her transition and had been operated on to be the woman she was inside, I got my doctor to prescribe hormones to me in pill form and I started going in more feminine clothes, my hair started to get long but when I was already starting to lose my hair in my teenage years, it was hard to get to look nice, But damn I was confused, I could still get tough and I was still very sexual and was easily aroused, so the confusion was total up in my head, so I stopped using hormones after approx. 1 year and started living as a man again, many of my friends from that time were extremely confused and it hurt me, it made things a lot harder! Once again I felt like I did not fit in, I was too fat for the nightclubs, every time I went in there I was looked down on, every single time I was in there, I was looked at as if I was rubbish they could go on, if I I eat an ice cream on Strøget, eat at a restaurant (And it still happens to this day!) it’s a really uncomfortable feeling to be bewitched that way! So I wanted to find out who I was and at this point the Internet was on a roll, I could search for anything and I did! I came to the conclusion that I was a Gay Bear (Big, Hairy and LOVES! Men), but I always had this feeling, that one day my feminine side would come out again, so some months ago, I came out as a Non -Binary Gay Bear (all these F ****** boxes, i mean !!!) and i wanted to make this website, my YouTube videos and post pictures on Instagram This is me, take me or leave me
My Mental Health
This is going to be a heavy one for me to write, it is not always easy to try and look back on your life, especially when you have holes in your memory, so there are a lot of things i have forgot Ever since i started school, i was sent to a psychologist, i had trouble learning things and couldn’t sit still very long, because i suffered a lot from hemorrhoids, but i wasn’t stupid, i just didn’t want to learn, i hated math, i loved reading and i learned English very early on When we moved and i had to go to a new school that also meant i had to have a new psychologist, she challenged me to face my “demons”, so i opened up about my mind at that point, you see, my mom and dad worked all day, so when i got home, i “played and talked” to my imaginary friends and they were not always nice, sometimes i got so scared, that i hid under the table in the living room, i was a alone, didn’t have any friends, they thought i was weird, didn’t help i watched my Horror/Gore movies and did strange things Anyway, i first got send to a special class, where all the troubled children were sent to, then i was sent to a very bad “farm” where all the bullies was sent and damn was that one of the worst things i ever! had to go through, so i was sent to a treatment home for kids like me, i stayed there for about 6 months, this was where my sexuality and mind blossomed, i had a teacher that took her time with me, i was never rushed, after the stay i came back to the old school, i wasn’t there for very long, things did not go as planned and the headmaster threw me out! So off i went to a school home, a place where we lived, went to school and played, boy oh boy did that go wrong, i had to see the psychologist, they knew something was wrong, but didn’t know how to help me, i had an affair with 2 boys, almost 3 and it was found out and i was restricted to go into the other kids rooms, i was the eldest at that time So i lived there for many many years and when i got out i started working with my parents and helping them in the kiosk, so here we go I was very sad, only had 1 friend at that time and my mind was playing tricks on me, i had problems with my sexuality, had no idea were to fit in, anywhere! Then I saw the add for the Makeup School and I started in January 1994, it was a whole new world for me, i learned a lot about myself, but I had a sadness inside… When i finished i went back to work with my parents and got a place to live, then things started to go wrong, i started hormone treatment, stopped and lived confused I started working in a company as a sales assistant, I didn’t fit in again, i moved to another store, that didn’t work out, i went to work in a customer service department and i was kind of OK, i got to learn some amazing people and they became my friends, then suddenly i went into a full depression, i mean FULL!!! couldn’t function, slept all the time, so this is where i started my first batch of pills, unfortunately my doctor at the time, said i should take the sleeping pills in the morning and the wake up pills in the evening, i could not function, at all!!! i also got fired from my job, everything went downhill from there Started a job in the Danish Post, worked with a sweet girl who trained me, she died very suddenly and i wasn’t allowed to go to her funeral, i got a new job in a hardware store, come Christmas time, i had to leave my job, i started shaking one day, i called my the psychologist and she told me to get the hell out, i was having a setback, so i left and never came back, fired again! started on social services, while seeing a psychiatrist, who gave me all kinds of pills and my weight started climbing, higher and higher
Movies		Music
I love all genres, but especially horror/Gore/splatter movies and i have some favorite director’s who are: Jörg Buttgereit, Peter Jackson, Tim Burton, Pedro Almodovâr, John Waters and Dario Argento – I also love Disney and collect Disney Blu Rays (also in 3D), i love 3D movies and have a nice collection, i have a Sony 3D TV and Blu Ray player, so i can watch movies here at home, i honestly don’t really like to go to the cinema		Oh boy, don’t get me started on this! i have a very broad taste in music, just like in movies, these are just a few of the artist’s i really like: Lady Gaga, Madonna, Pink, Marilyn Manson, Kylie, Kristine W, Moby, Meat Loaf, Alice Cooper, Pet Shop Boys, Scissor Sisters, Mylene Farmer, Cher, George Michael, Antony And The Johnson’s and many many more